I feel like life lately has been an underwater struggle where I don’t have enough air to breathe. I feel like everything that I want/need is one step above my reach. I can’t get what I want/need anymore. I hate it. I want to feel like I can do everything that I used to be able to. Right now, I’m in Biolgoy and we’re talking about the G word, and I hate that. As If people aren’t sensitive to it. Apparently some teacher was shot in a classroom in Ohio, and My teacher and this chick Rachel are talking about it and Mrs. Liss is talking about how she’s afraid someone will come in and shoot her brains out. And then, tomorrow we’re doing a murder mystery activity in class, and guess what it has to do with!!!! G words, yay. I hate this. I’m sick of being sensitive to it, but I just can’t help it. I hate that I can’t be normal most days. Last night was one of the hardest nights of my life, and I hate it so much. I just feel like jumping out of a window sometimes, not really. I know that won’t help anything. Nobody seems to understand, It’s like I’m in a world where there’s one person who understands what I’m going through, and that person won’t talk to me. I don’t know how to get this person to talk to me about this subject…but I need them too. Blah, It’s not like it matters. Maybe I’m being selfish. Yay, my teacher is talking about shooting other people now. Can people understand sensitivity? I guess not. Anyways, I’m done for now, I’ll update during extended study.
I’ll always miss you.
